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To  be continued…

Can’t seem to sleep last night even after a cup of self-made Black Russian. People keep inviting me to events that I can’t possibly join, places I can’t possibly go, fun I can’t possibly have.

Sometimes I do want to just have my solitary life. Nobody will make my life seems even more unpleasant.

Economy hasn’t got better in this country down under. It is so stress to think of the fact that I should be in the workforce at my age, earning my own dough to buy my own donuts.

My daily routines continues.. Debugging my program in and out for the entire morning, and later find out another method which I completed in an hour. Welcome to the life of a programmer… frustrated isn’t it?

Spring is here, yet it’s colder than ever. When will it be warmer and sunny? I have neglected my blog AGAIN. I have not much time to spare nowadays. I only sit down and blog when I am stucked in between to-dos because I couldn’t start the new task before the time is right.

October has a lot to offer that I put so much hope in it. It has been 3 months now since I “officially” left Monash University. Spent 2 weeks in Malaysia and the rest busy with my daily routine.

1. Job hunting
2. Work on my project
3. Cook for meals
4. Sleep

People are curios about what I do everyday, the list above is basically it. Exclude those occasional social events, these 4 things are the things I do every single day since completed my Graduate Diploma. I wakes up around 8.30 and end my day at 12am everyday. Performing a variety of things mainly cosist of these 4.

The other day my friend Kevin asked me a question I intentionally forget to remember. He ask me the ratio of getting an interview to the amount I have applied. The number of my msn personal message  indicates the amount of job applications I have applied. I summed up phone and face to face interviews and realize the result is a little less than 8%. How sad it is.

Everybody says the economy is growing, but they didn’t realize employment rate is growing along side. Today I went for my IELTS test at Caulfield and found out a rather amusing thing. I see brown brown brown all the way brown, oh white! yellow.. yellow.. brown.. brown.. yellow.. brown.. brown.. brown.. white.. white.. brown.. brownn… broownnnn.. and brown..

No I’m not colour blind if you’re guessing it. Those are the colours of people in the queue to the exam! Holy shiet the indians from India, Malaysia and god knows where else are invading this country! We are going to be drown by curry one day. Amusing, yet somewhat frightening. Guess I don’t have the chance to be driving taxis around here anymore. Haha..

It was so long since I used my iPod on the road. My iPod battery was drained when I found it yesterday, it shows that it had been so long since I last used it, – I do not remember.

I was preparing for the battle of the chosen and decided to arrive an hour early at the arena so I might need my iPod. The battle has ended and I was mortified when I left the arena, realizing how defeated I am.

I stared out the window of the half-hour train ride, I did not bother strapping on my Seinnheiser.

I have too much in mind, too much to think that there’s no time for music. They say wiser, I say older.

I have changed.

I know I know.. I have abandoned my blog for a very long time. Readers don’t even bother to come back anymore eh? So sorry about that because I am in a very difficult phase right now. My brain has too much information to process that it can easily overheat and turn into a useless piece of walnut.

The world is undergoing the economic crisis, it affects me so much that I am experiencing my own life crisis now – the life changing phase. A lot of us already experienced the life changing phase and to me this is second biggest phase change after I arrived at Melbourne 2.5 years ago.

A lot of people tell me, “You should be enjoying your life now, you will have no time when you start working and you’ll regret that you never appreciate it.”

It may be true for most of the people out there working, but I am not one of them. I’ve been through the toughest time FullTime(working+studying) = crazyness. So going back to the working life is not much of a challenge to me. In fact it is more challenging to get a job now.

Nowadays I rather spend my time sending out resumes rather than blabbering here, but today is different. I came back because I need to calm my nerves. I have got a group interview tomorrow. Preparation is on the way but my nerves are running wild too.

I am so nervous because this seems to be a golden opportunity, just like the previous one. It is so hard to get your CV approved at initial screening and even harder to get a job you want! It is like hunting for a cobra in the desert! You just keep walking and walking and walking until you are wasted and not knowing where you are, suddenly a snake pops out from no where and bit you on your ass cheek. Ouch.

Hope it’ll be smooth-sailing tomorrow, and also the face-to-face interview after (if I passed).

Arhhh, instead of an ass burning sunny day, it looks like it will be raining tomorrow. Not that smooth already. Damn.